"I think, that's where true redemption is, to take away everything that covers our vulnerability before him. I think GOD wants us to come naked before Him so he can cloth us with light, he wants us to come bleeding before him so he can heal us with love" I said and wondered what I even meant.
Here’s the gist. If your desire doesn't lead you to GOD, purity and the essence of the truth, then you need to pull the plug and have a surgical session on the desire. Cut it open and fix this and that before using. All desires can be re-routed to do good.
To Murder someone requires a measure of theft but to Murder self - not in sacrifice to GOD but total annihilation of the Will of GOD - requires a separation from the truth that GOD gives.
The command is: Don't have anything stopping GOD in HIS way of redeeming you to the righteousness that beats the standards of guilty and frail humans.